I let go of what I am...

I am done class this week. This will officially mark the end of my second year of college...one year to go, and I'll be in the 'real world'. I don't know if I'm ready, to be honest.

One week has gone by since I met with Elmer Olsen, but I'm not closer to making a decision. I read a quote yesterday that really struck me:

"When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be."

This seems like an equation to me, almost.
What I am = student
What I might be = international model

When I let go of being a student, I become an international model? Weird. It doesn't sound right when I say it out loud. Nothing ever sounds right when I say it out loud. But does it feel right? I can't answer that either.

I know that I'm content living the life of a student, but would I be more content building a platform for myself? I could use this platform for so much... there's a lot I want to accomplish - a lot I plan on accomplishing with or without the title of 'international model'. Would this title make it easier? Certainly. But I've never had things handed to me - I've always worked hard for the things I have. I've always wanted to be a part of something bigger than myself. This would certainly be bigger than anything I could've ever imagined.

I'm still so undecided. I've been too busy worrying about finishing this semester and finding a summer job to actually take the time to think about everything with a clear mind. I don't think it's bad that I don't know where I'm going just yet. I had a complete life plan as of two weeks ago that has been completely disheveled since my meeting. Maybe this is a sign that I underestimate my abilities. Maybe this is a sign that life doesn't revolve around a 'plan'. At least not one that we non-divine beings create for ourselves...

I'm working through my thoughts slowly, but I'm going home for Easter this weekend and will hopefully be able to talk things through with my family. They always seem to offer a fresh perspective. They always have the best intentions, and want what's best for me. Do they know what's best for me? That's a different story. In the mean time, I've got a biography and communications plan to finish, and a movie to watch illegally.

Good luck with your exams and dilemmas, friends.

-Satisfy my Soul

Apartments, The Classics, and Theatre Students - Oh Mi..ley?

Good morning readers! As of today, I have two classes, three tests, and one final presentation left until my summer begins! With the end of a semester comes a lot of happiness and celebratory events, such as the bonfire on Friday at the lake, the gala next week Thursday, and perhaps a PR party next Friday. The thought of moving out of rez on May 1st is extremely weird though. It's going to be odd this summer without having my friends right next door. I am thankful, however, that we are living close to some of them next year...which brings me to my next point... my roommate and I finally got an apartment! It's currently occupied by slightly dirty boys, but once it's cleaned, and all of our stuff is moved in, it's going to be wonderful. I can't wait! :]



Random statement: I've been listening to a lot of my older music lately...only the classics, of course. Things like: Joan Jett, Cyndi Lauper, Nirvana, Heart, Blondie... I rediscovered my collection randomly, and now I can't help but listen to it every day. It's just raw and I love it.

Oh! So today, I was in my elective, and we didn't really need to go to this class because we were just watching a movie and handing in our essays, but thankfully I attended, because I witnessed one of the funniest things I've ever seen. Sitting in my chair and daydreaming like I usually do before class starts, I was suddenly snapped out of my thoughts with, "I hopped off the plane at LAX, with a dream and my cardigan..." Miley Cyrus' Party in the USA, blasts into the room, her skimpy little shorts and push-up bra gracing us with their presence on the projector. Then, as if this wasn't painful enough, the theatre students in my class, jumped up and started to sing and dance. I felt like I was in an episode of Glee or High School Musical. To top it all off, my professor grabs her video camera and starts to film these eccentric students singing along to Miley Cyrus. It was crazy, but extremely funny, as the theatre students that were performing were boys. Now, I know I haven't been very frequent with the visuals, so here's a special treat:





Have a lovely day readers!

-Satisfy my Soul